Different Person

I just went back and read the first 3 months worth of posts on this blog.  I am now blessed, again.  I'm not entirely sure why, but I think it's really because I was a different person at that point in life.  I was different from the years before, and also somewhat different from the man I am now.  That point in life was a point of beginning for me in ministry.  I was learning to serve, lead, and worship.  At that point, I was not yet a target for the enemy's heavy attack.  I was entering into battle, and the record of the changing in my heart was captured in those few months worth of blog posts.  

I want to return to that time in life.  I was a sponge absorbing the Bible, and I included my family in all the cool things I experienced.  I was also under much less attack.  So many times I feel like giving up on ministry would be so much better because the attack would stop, but then I look at the man several years ago that was becoming a disciple, and the zeal he had for Jesus, and I realize that I am doing what God wants by remaining in His service, and God is in charge.  I am a disciple of Christ, and that crazy time of getting to know God doesn't have to end.  I should be embracing the battles that God has allowed for me to walk through in expectation that He will use them to perfect me.  My hope is to digest those same encouraging words that I wrote 3 years ago, and repeat the process until desired results are achieved.  Rinse and repeat.